God

Does God exist? I believe in Him/Her(if I can be so arrogant as to assign God a sex). I don't know God, however. I have neither been able to personally communicate with God, nor feel his presence(lets assume he is male for sake of convenience-not trying to be chauvinistic here). Maybe I was never supposed to establish contact. Or maybe I am not eligible yet, nor do I know a method of gaining that eligibility. And I'm definitely not sold on the fact that religion is the way(more under a future topic - Religion).
Why do I believe then, that God exists? Perhaps it stems from my inability to explain the world or the universe and everything in it. Where did everything come from? I've read theories on the Big Bang and black holes, but where did that come from? If the law of conservation of energy is true, what was the initial form of energy that landed you and me here in this world? Which is why I feel God is not a human form, but a form of energy. Lets leave it at that.
I was introduced to Yoga & Spirituality by my parents when I was in High School. And for a while there, I thought spirituality was the way. I still believe it is, but however I don't feel the need for God yet. The universal question - "Who am I? Why am I here?" has popped up in my mind many a time, but I haven't seriously started to search for an answer yet(maybe Google will be able to tell me one day ;) )
God does not play an active role in my everyday life. And I dont believe things were ever intended that way. We are responsible for our own actions, and to lead our lives the way we want. Imagine the number of coconuts wasted in India during school finals. Im pretty sure god does not intervene. You work hard/work smart and you get ahead. Luck is a factor, yes, but definitely not a function of your loyalty to God. It is more a function of your and other people's life events that are completely out of your control.
I'm not so sure about fate either. It makes life so pointless and uninteresting, to think your life's path has already been clearly charted out - which is why I detest astrologers and fortune columns. "A real man makes his own luck", Billy Zane said in the Titanic. And many a time in life, when I have fallen, or have been disappointed, I have consoled myself saying 'All that happens, happens for the good', and 'luckily' things have turned out alrite so far (Thank God! ;) )
So when I go to temples these days(pretty rarely), I do pray. I've stopped asking for material things. I thank God for everything I have(not sure why, maybe out of habit). And I ask for happiness instead for me, my family and the world. I'm not sure why I ask....maybe its just an expression of my hope, or my wish. I do feel a sense of calm, or inner peace when I'm in a temple though....maybe its the presence of God, or maybe its just nostalgia.
So thats that!